In our last few months in Beijing we did a bit of a “tick the
bucket list” of travels and things around Beijing and China. To name just a few
we travelled to Guangzhou to see a friend we’d been promising to visit for
years, we took another hiking trip with Beijing hikers and this time to a rural
village, we went back to the forbidden city to tour around it, and of course we
went to Tibet as we figured it would be hard to ever do that again.
After 5 years in Beijing(and 2 in Shanghai) we’d covered a good
amount of ground in China (its a big country, if you've not noticed) traveling
to far flung places like Harbin, Xian, Wuhan, Guangzhou, and Lhasa. We’ve seen
a good bit of the country as well as some of the, “is this China?” Places like
Hong Kong, Macau, and Taiwan. We did make some Chinese friends, though I would
say not too many. Mostly this is because we were too busy and/or the timing
just was hard to coordinate meet-ups. This is partly to do with the busy nature
of the work I was doing those 5 years in Beijing, basically putting the gas to
the floor to work as much as possible and having little time to do much
else.
There were many things we enjoyed about Beijing and I think the
friendly nature of one to one interactions and the attitude of “whatever flies”
was something we usually liked. We liked to say, "In China anything is
possible", good and bad. In many ways, on the street level, people in
Beijing are much more free than people in the west or Japan. No one seemed to
care about noise or dirt or proximity or place and in many ways this was
freeing. There was a kind of chabudou, or close enough, sort of attitude.
Tidiness was not much of an issue, but we did notice through our years that
generally businesses, public places, etc. were getting cleaner and some might
say less interesting. Noise was turned up no matter the place or situation. If
you want to go for a peaceful walk in the park good luck, every rock is a fake
rock/speaker belting out a "soothing" tune. I often felt like, to
blend in a bit more, I would have to speak really loudly when using my Chinese
to make it more authentic. Oddly, we did have one noise complaint against us in
our 5 years and we can’t figure out why both because we were watching tv at a
low volume level and... everything else in China was so noisy we couldn’t
fathom someone actually making a noise complaint.
The police largely left us alone, though we did have 5-6 officers
show up to our apartment door one Friday night as they thought I was my friend
who failed to register with the police while visiting but did not fail to put
my address as where he was staying when he passed immigration. That worked out
fine, but the police were largely a mystery to us. We rarely saw them doing
anything and when we did they were sleeping in a car or loitering around
seemingly doing nothing. We did go to the police stations a few times for
registrations, but each time I was surprised that it was a pretty lax process
and I was always struck by the long lunch hour (2 hours!) that I had to try to
avoid. Despite that, China seemed safe from violent or confrontational crime.
We never heard or experienced any robberies, mugging, thefts, or worse amongst
our friends whereas in Malaysia everyone had or knew by one degree of
separation someone who had been robbed or harmed. Perhaps that isn’t too
surprising though since the state and the police had a presence that was
seemingly always there and citizens do not have a lot of rights against their
own government should they find themselves in opposition or trouble.
Throughout our time in China we ran into many stories of people being detained
without cause(Not people we knew personally), jailed for inciting opposition to
the government, or held on house arrest. The government is everything and to
oppose them, even peacefully, is not accepted for very long. Human rights
lawyers and environmental lawyers were routinely held without cause and charged
without strong evidence. If you made trouble for the government, they made sure
to make trouble for you.
In the first couple of years we did try to talk with our Chinese
friends about some of the issues that were hot buttons in Chinese society such
as unjust incarceration, the role of the government, or environmental
pollution, but these never turned out to be productive dialogues. Perhaps it is
because of our delivery, but I think it is more about a defensiveness Chinese
people have as they identify China and its government with themselves rather
than as in the west where many, but not all, people identify the people and the
government as separate entities. Most of these conversations turned into a
“whataboutism” that did not exactly address the issue but intended to deflect
or equivocate. I remember one such conversation my first year in Beijing where
I was complaining about the pollution, it was something like 350aqi at the
time, hazardous and obviously thick smoky air. A Chinese friend said her
in-laws lived in Beijing and that they didn’t think the air was that bad. I
said that the numbers don’t lie and it was in fact unhealthy air most of the
time. She then whataboutismed me with stating that LA also had polluted air
(yes, and?) For reference, dear reader, LA air quality is the worst large city
air quality in the US, but it is less than half as bad as beijing air year on
year. I encountered this type of argument time to time. Human rights abuses?
What about how America treats minorities? Restricting protests? What if it
happened in the US, the police would surely shoot. And on and on.
Most of the time the Chinese government used scapegoats to release
the pent up aggressions of Chinese citizens. Protesting against the government
is a no-no, but if you want something to protest against how about the
Japanese? What about Korea? Once while on a field trip with students a Chinese
teacher blurted out, unprompted, that the Japanese were always provoking China
and that is why there was constant tension between the two. I couldn’t
understand why the teacher had said that (seems to me a good amount of
provocation on both sides), but on the train ride back to the city the teacher
was reading the Global Times, a party newspaper notorious for having editorials
say the things the government wanted to say, but couldn’t directly. I asked her
jokingly if she read the paper daily as I assumed she just picked it up on the
train with nothing else to read. She said yes, everyday. At certain times
while watching news such as on BBC the tv channel would just cut out and we
would later hear that there was something about Tibet, or Taiwan, or something
else sensitive to the party that was being discussed. It was hard to understand
how the party justified this and got away with it, but citizens would often
echo sentiments of outside forces meddling in Chinas affairs. To me, it seemed
like a bit too much paternalizm.
In a closed system of media, whether by paper or by internet, there was a
certain danger in playing the constant victim. There was always someone else to
blame and march against, but only when the government approved. If they did not
sanction it, large groups could not gather. That was illegal. At one point, there
was even a beer festival I was going to attend that was cancelled as that would
mean a large group gathering and the proper permission was withdrawn. If you
cancel the beer festival I'm going to, that is a line crossed!
Permission was a bit of an odd thing. Sometimes you had it when you shouldn’t,
sometimes you had it then it was taken away, sometimes you couldn’t get it but
can’t figure out why. Most people said, just do it and ask for forgiveness
later if it is wrong.
Many times we were told, you are foreign so you wouldn’t
understand. Maybe. Maybe that is true. It is hard to tell. If it is true, we
might not know it, but either way we would have to rely on someone’s word and
that could be difficult when they are seemingly contradicting themselves. As an
example, we had one friend, unprompted, tell Aya that she was ok with the
internment of Uighers in the western provinces. When asked if she would be ok
with it if it were her own family she said yes (was this defensive?). On the
same day but previous to this conversation she said to another friend, I just
wish westerners would respect China and the Chinese. In a way, this puts me and
a lot of westerners in a mental pickle. I do respect the Chinese people and the
Chinese nation for the achievements that they’ve earned, but its hard to
respect the Chinese government for interning its own citizens and even harder
to respect Chinese citizens who say they are fine with that. How can I respect
a China/Chinese citizen who doesn’t seem to respect the human rights of other
Chinese citizens? Is it because I am a foreigner and wouldn’t understand the
Chinese concept of human rights? Most Chinese would probably say, yes.
These things came up every couple of months. Something would happen
or someone would say something to us that would make us think, do we not
understand fully what is happening here? I often felt like we did, but maybe we
never did. I’m not sure though that people in China really know either. In some
of the final weeks we were in Beijing and we went to the rural village of
Cuandixia To do some hiking. Here there were many old houses with slogans of
the cultural revolution fading away on their sides. Our guide told us about the
slogans and talked about how during the war with the Japanese some buildings
and temples were destroyed, but never a mention of why the cultural revolution
or the Great Leap Forward actually did to the area. We never heard much about
these events, or Tianaman square for that matter. Even at the national history
museum the terrible events of the 60-70s gets barely a mention among halls and
halls of China’s national history. The Chinese often point to Japan and say
they should examine their past more closely about such things as the Nanjing
massacre and I think they are right, but ask the Chinese to reciprocate and it
suddenly becomes taboo to discuss national past wrong doings.
Do they know about it? Sure, but how well do they really know it if a full
array of opinions and sources are not used to discuss it? (yes, I'm a teacher!)
Just because what you hear is true does not mean you are hearing the truth.
Truth can be negated by omission.
I have come to have an affection for Chinese people and the
Chinese nation. As China continues to play an every larger role on
the world stage, I worry. What vision of the world and themselves will the
Chinese citizens have? Can they move forward peacefully without a full
vision of themselves? What view will the world have of China and the
Chinese as this happens? It is my sincerest wish that the Chinese and the world
find a path forward together and that, perhaps, a westerner might finally
understand. Who knows, perhaps someday I will return and understand China
better.